My new fitness program

Posted on August 18, 2012 by Grey Wolf Healings

Here at Creacon Retreat Center in New Ross, County Wexford, Ireland, we now officially have a new Fitness and Nutrition coach that comes weekly to show us a New Way! His name is Gavin O’Neill!  He is now a licensed counselor…thank the Lord! Not a moment too late because I was finally in a place to deal with my physical issues…the only one I have is the extra I gained weight 20+ years ago as the result of a rape. For some reason I resist letting go of it, although I did let go of 100 pounds in 2003 thru a program I put together myself utitlizing Weight Watchers, Overeaters Anonymous and going to the gym 5-6 times a week, then I moved to Arizona and moved away from the programs at the same time. I was told once by a spiritual teacher that you have to address or work with things in your life on four levels – the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual levels, balancing them all thru the Spiritual level. I realized recently that I have addressed the event that happened on all levels, and layers of those levels, but not the physical which I seemed to have saved until last. Recently my teacher, mentor, and friend, Derek O’Neill from Dublin, Ireland, (www.derekoneill.com) answered a question on one of his radio shows for me regarding my procrastination around exercising. Basically his answer was this…procrastination is another word for laziness (haha thank you Derek) and I can get out and walk 20 minutes a day now or after I experience a myo-something or other (I got what he meant)!   Needless to say I took my teacher’s advice to heart and have walked every day since, it has been about 6 weeks since that phone question. I have been trying…trying being the optimal word here…to get the food under control…or figured out…or ? I cut down my meals to 1/2 portions, fasted one day a week, etc. – combining this with the walking helped some but I really wasn’t losing weight. I do the 5 Tibetans three times a week also but wanted to up that to 5 times, which some weeks that happens and sometimes not, and therein lies the procrastination. So I appealed to my teacher, Derek, and the Lads thru meditation to send me help in some form, and that’s when Gavin appeared on the scene…thank you Derek and the Lads for hearing my prayers. Of course, with every gift comes a challenge….as the saying goes be careful what you ask for you just might get it, but does it stop me from asking??? No… somehow in my mind what I pray for will just magically appear…or disappear in this case….haha give God a good laugh, tell him your plans.  So my meeting with Gavin went well, he is a very gentle soul when dealing with people and their requests. He questioned me on what I ate and snacked on, what I did for exercise, looked at my current weight, asked me what I wanted out of it all, then he put together a program for me. This was Tuesday of this week and since then I have been following the program. I set my intent that I was going to follow his instructions…intent runs the universe and is an integral part for the start of every ceremony…and everything in life is a ceremony.  I find when I set my intent everything moves forward clearer and with more purpose. This is different than goal setting, it is an internal energy, or a consciousness if you will regarding something you want to take on or do.  I also decided to start a weekly blog – others I mentioned this to kind of went “o-o-o-kay” as in a “what if” response. Well, what if…. what if I screw up somehow, what if I give up, and what if the whole world knows I did with this blog and I can’t hack it.  So what?!  I have never let the possibility of not doing well enter my mind when I start something.  I remember when I worked in the seminar business as a facilitator and we did this exercise where you were supposed to go around the room and tell every person you came to “what I see great about you is___”.  I got to the president of the company who decided to participate in the exercise and she said to me “what’s great about you is you tenacity to go forward no matter how many obstacles are in your way”.  I looked at her confused and thought to myself, what obstacles?  What did she see were obstacles in my way of becoming a facilitator, because I didn’t see any?  They interviewed 400 people for a training program they were accepting 20 into, and from those 20 only were picking two to be facilitator’s.  I was picked as one of the two when it was over.  I didn’t consider what if I don’t make instructor, what if everyone I tell about my dream thinks I’m crazy, what if I make an a__ out of myself, why do I think I will get picked out of 400 people, etc, etc.  I went for it and left the rest to God…kept my Eyes On Creator.

So here I am  five days into the program, we eat family style here at Creacon and everyone else had pizza, milkshakes and chocolate cake for dinner…my all time favorite meal.  I had grilled chicken, broccoli and kidney beans with a little cocoanut oil drizzled over it.  I didn’t cry and whine about it.  I have had my pizza’s and chocolate cake’s aplenty.  If I chose to have it tonight I could have as my “cheat” meal for this week.  I am deciding whether I want to have one of those cheat meals every week, maybe I will and maybe I won’t, I will decide as it comes to me,  it will be a decision because it is a choice as everything is in life.  Feeling deprived is a choice and if I felt that way, it would be a victim attitude, or I could look at as a chance to look at my attachments to food.  I can use this program to examine my motivations around food, and look at what I am really feeling “deprived of” when I crave something – am I looking for nurturing, or for love, or to continue to feel that my only protection is weight,  when in fact my only protection is Love…or I can choose to be a victim.  My desires and attachments steer me away from love, accepting love, giving love and loving myself.  I am on a spiritual path and have been taught by Derek to look at my desires and attachments because they are what will paralyze me on this path and keep me from the goal…the only worthy goal in life…merging with God…self-realization….enlightenment.  That is my real craving, God, all the rest are just substitutes along the way.  I have read in several spiritual books lately that it is important to be in good physical health because if you aren’t it gets in the way of your spiritual path, so it has bothered me lately that I find myself tired or feeling “creeky”, slow to get up, etc.  I found that this was keeping me from meditating well, doing healing work, etc.  So it was time, my time is now, where am I going, how am I getting there, what do I need to do to get there in a better way.

I will keep you updated on my progress as I go along.  Many Blessings!

Love Love Love

Sandra Grey Wolf

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April animal message

Posted on April 8, 2012 by Grey Wolf Healings

BEAVER
Have you heard the saying ‘busy as a little beaver’? That is what April will be for us, we are now going to jump on those opportunities that were presented to us in March…or those lessons we got as opportunities to learn and to grow and to change…yes, change! Now is the time to start building for the future, for Beaver is the Builder. If you want to create a dam, you’ve got to start gnawing down the trees…right? So what will it take for you to get this new project in your life going? Spring is here and it is all about new beginnings…moving forward…finding a new way…putting new energy into what you are already doing. It takes work and effort to create what you want, to bring your dreams to reality. What is your first step? Take time every morning to envision the next step (be sure to get Derek’s discourse for April, he talks about this), make a list of what will create your future. If you find your mind heading the wrong way in all this, bring it back by replacing any negative thoughts with positive ones, or say a mantra. Use all the tools you have received in the teachings to move past the habits that have always stopped you in the past. Remind yourself what your motivation is, this will help you move past the old ways so you can build something new for yourself. Nothing stops beaver once he gets going and if someone comes along and destroys what he has built, does he give up? No, he just re-builds, finds another way or another place, moves the rocks over, churns up the mud a bit, and starts again. Did one way of advertising not work? Find another. Does the first chapter of your book not turn you on? Re-write, or throw it out and start again from another angle. Did one effort at holding a class not bring people? Does a beaver stop at one effort? Think not! Think again! Keep going…the busy beaver gets the best swimming hole! Our ego can be a tricky one, know that every perceived obstacle is an opportunity for growth and how you get past it is with Intention – Intent runs the Universe. Focus, focus, focus on your intent, like Beaver’s intent to build a dam, all his focus, all his energy, all his love goes into creating the dam, then he just starts and lets Spirit guide his hands and his steps. You can do it…remember what Yoda said – ‘not try, do’. And listen to Derek’s radio shows, he is giving us some really great teachings to make our dreams and wishes a reality!

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No Judgement

Posted on January 29, 2012 by Grey Wolf Healings

I had a meltdown last night. It was realizing how an experience I had 28 years ago affected my weight. I realized today in meditation why it got me where I am today and experiencing the programs I have today that are still standing in my way of moving forward in my work and on my spiritual path. A couple of reasons or more really:
I had to clear my need for attention which I was showed clearly at Christmas I still had, and I had to clear it NOW for what is to come in the future if I am to go further in the work I have come here to do and go forward with the Mission I have come here to complete. My need for attention – wanting to be a part of and fearing the loss of that is what will bring to me more of the same event that happened 28 years ago. My teacher is working at helping me see that this program I bought as a very small child is what brought to me that event, and will bring me there again except in an even bigger way this time if I don’t clear it now.
I needed the experience so I could teach others from my own experience. I also needed the experience so I could learn to trust my teacher implicitly and trust that he would always be there physically protecting me because I felt in the past he could have protected me but instead he abandoned me. Yet yesterday I was telling a friend how our teacher will not and cannot step in and protect us from an experience we are here to experience, a karmic event that is here to teach us a very powerful lesson we can only get from experiencing the event, or we will not reach enlightenment. That experience and cleansing is what will bring me to enlightenment once I get past it because it was the culmination of a lifetime of believing I needed attention and acknowledgement in order to be loved or feel loved. I have always felt unloveable. I have always craved attention to feel I was loved, so I could see how much others loved me, it was my gauge. I always wanted to be a part of something great and be recognized for being there as it showed I was important, that I was needed, that then of course it meant that I was loved. Loved in spite of how I treated others, in spite of whether I loved myself or not, in spite of whether I felt I deserved it. I felt as long as I worked hard I deserved it, that somehow that was FAIR. Not how I loved and accepted others, I didn’t love and accept others, I judged others, I was constantly comparing how important I was to how high a position I held. I was constantly comparing myself and judging myself as good or bad based on how high I rose and how that compared to where others were at. I constantly judged myself on whether people listened to what I had to say, whether they took my advice, ALL was comparing and judging myself as worthy or lacking, as good or bad, as loveable or unloveable.
WHO AM I but the same as God, therefore whatever I believe I am I become. If I believe I have as much right as God does to my opinion, then I am God. We are ALL GOD though and we are all entitled to our opinion, as God, because they are ALL GOD’s opinions – whether society judges them right or wrong, good or bad, light or dark – makes no difference. Every opinion is God’s opinion, every act is God’s act, every word is God’s word, every person is God. Therefore there is no separation, there is no condemnation in the Eyes of Creator because in the Eyes of Creator we are all Creator and we are all creating and we only have one place to end up and that’s back joined together with God.

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I Am Love

Posted on January 22, 2012 by Grey Wolf Healings

SAY THESE WORDS: I AM LOVE

I Am thru the Mighty Divine I Am Presence one with the Creator in this writing and all that I do here, show us the way to peace in our lives.

Every place I go Creator is with me and I hold the key to be protected, whole, guided with love in my heart, safe and free at all times. It is within me because the I Am Presence is within me, is within all of us. No further do I need to look but within myself, within my heart, to know I am loved.

Love lives here, just keep saying that to yourself. Love lives within me. I am the Mighty Divine I Am Presence. I Am guided and loved in all that I do. This is what I teach and this is who I Am. We are ALL divinely inspired by Spirit, if we learn to listen, really listen within to the whisperings of Spirit in our hearts.

Every breath we take is guided by Spirit, by God, so if we were to count our blessings we would have to count every breath we take every day and know that that is how much we are loved. Spirit is around us in the air we breathe, when we pollute the air with angry words we block God from our hearts. Every word said with anger hurts us and those around us because the energy in the words fill the air we breathe with hate. We have forgotten this and so wonder why we have pain in our hearts, our minds and our bodies. We try to insulate ourselves by building walls to block the pain but instead it only blocks the love from entering our hearts. Love takes down the walls brick by brick.

Take the time to love every day. Send out love to all those you know every morning and to all those you will meet this day and watch the miracles that happen in your life. You will create a life of such joy and wonder your heart will be filled. Every breath you take will heal your body and every breath you send out will heal others. Christ said “love your enemies and be good to those who harm you” and we have asked why. This is why because love disarms your enemies. They cannot fight a war of love. The energy is not there in the air to fight, the anger is not there, they slice their swords thru thin air because there is no one there to fight. People laugh at this thought but the tide will turn and the only defense you will have is what is in your heart. Your protection is your love, it is the only protection you have from pain. The more you love the less you hurt or will be hurt. You must understand what love is though. It is freely given from your heart with no thought of return. It is recognizing God in everyone you see, know or hear about. Every person is here to fulfill two purposes, one is to love and the other is to be loved. This is our challenge and our destiny. The challenge is to love those who do harm to us, as children and as adults. The destiny is to inspire others to love us in spite of what we do to others and ourselves.

We are given choices every minute to love and to be loved. We can resolve every choice by responding with love. Love, not anger, not jealousy, not judgment, not guilt, not hurt, our only protection from pain is love. Do you want to change the past? You can because you hold the key. The key is to look at it with love. We change the past by changing our feelings and perceptions around the past. We can’t change the events only by adding love and releasing the anger. This is the challenge spoken of earlier. Look for the lesson or the strength we gained as a result of the event. Are we stronger, more determined, committed to succeeding in all we do? Do we have more empathy, compassion, caring to give others? Have we pursued a career in which we help or defend others who don’t have the strength or the courage to help themselves? Love the people and the event for what it gave you, understand the lesson was yours not theirs. Or, are you still stuck in the event and thereby in your life in some area? Are you afraid to love, quick to anger, in a job you hate, or a relationship you don’t understand? Look again at your life with the eyes of love. Retain the lesson, release the pain surrounding it. The very thought of loving someone who has done harm to you is repulsive. It goes against the grain of what we have been taught. Yet look at the Golden Rule: Do unto others AS YOU WOULD HAVE others do unto you. It doesn’t say as they have done to you, or as they may do to you but as you would like them to do to you. No one said it would be easy, this life we have chosen. And, we did choose it. We chose our parents, our siblings, our teachers, our friends. We chose those that love us, those that hate us, those that care about us and those that don’t care at all. Why? For the lessons, for the challenge, for the opportunity to create a new destiny for ourselves this time around, for all of that and more. We came to learn love, until we get it right. We came to learn what it is about, how we use it, why we lose it, how to give it and how to accept it. It is all about love. Why? It is the most powerful energy therefore it teaches us the most powerful lessons. It has the most impact in our lives. We have the ability to wield the most powerful energy there is here and now. How we use it speaks of who we are, who we came here to be and where we want to be in the future. There is no greater challenge, there is no greater destiny.

DAILY AFFIRMATION

I Am the Mighty Divine I Am Presence of Love, this energy of Spirit moves through me with every breath I take, with every word I speak, with every thought I think, with every work I do now. I Am divinely guided by the Light of Spirit as Love moves through me to know at all times where I Am to be and what I Am to be doing. I Am a child of the Light. I Am a healer and teacher as Love moves through me to heal all who come in contact with me and to teach only love.

These are the words to say every day to heal you and to heal your life. Speak but the Word and your soul will be healed. Speak the Word Love and your heart and the hearts of others will be healed now in this instant.

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Creator is everywhere

Posted on November 23, 2011 by Grey Wolf Healings

Hi all!  This blog is about seeing Creator everywhere in your life, every person, every place, everything.  What do I mean when I refer to Creator?  In Star Wars they called it “the Force”, in churches its called God, in Hindu tradition its Atma or Brahman, etc.  Creator has many names and many faces.  What I have found is its all one, all paths lead to the one.  We are all one.  There are no limitations to One who has created everything and everybody, how could there be?  Everyone wants to think their Creator is best, the one everyone should follow…if there is only One who created everything then how can there be a best.  Many people think that Creator is only good things that anything bad is made up by the “other guy” – the Devil, the Dark Force, etc.  Creator is all things, good and bad.  The Light could not see itself if there was not darkness, the darkness would not know itself if there were not Light.  So you have to have both or we can’t exist, life can’t exist, nothing can exist.

When we see duality in the world, in ourselves, we separate ourselves from Creator.  This is when I started feeling alone.  I was told as a child “you don’t see angels, you’re lying”, yet I did.  My mom took me to a priest and he’s the one who told me this and my mom was all worried.  As children we have a strong survival instinct and we know if mom leaves we don’t survive, so I quit seeing angels and Spirit Guides.  I shut down on my connection to Creator.  I prayed how I was told to pray, what was acceptable prayer, this didn’t include tea parties with angels.  I remember hiding in the closet after that because I was afraid.  The angels always protected me but because I couldn’t see them any more I felt alone and afraid.  Abandoned by the angels equalled abandoned by God, and it has taken me years to get back to realizing I was never abandoned by either.  I left them, they never left me.

I work and study with a man from Dublin, Ireland named Derek O’Neill.  He helped me come back to understanding the truth about me and my life – that many of my issues – lack of self worth, don’t recognize my self, unworthy, etc. – stem from the fact I feel abandoned and unloveable.  I feel that way because I felt Creator abandoned me and I projected that into every relationship I have ever had.  Three husbands and a few relationships later I finally came to this realization.  I kept creating being abandoned until I realized the truth that set me free – I abandoned myself when I was four years old because I let others take Creator away from me.  One thing I learned in the teachings I am studying is that we get all of the karmic lessons we are to work out in this lifetime between the ages of 0-5 years old, then we spend the rest of our life working them out.  Until at some point we come to the Realization of who we are, we are Creator, we are God.

In the Bible it says, “if thine eye be single, they whole body will be filled with Light”.  I am Creator, you are Creator, the animals are Creator, the flowers and trees are Creator, everything and everyone we see is Creator.  We created them so we can see ourselves, the truth about ourselves.  The Light and the Dark, all aspects of who we are, so we can accept it all and realize we are one with Creator as we are one with everyone and everything.  This is keeping our “eyesoncreator”, this is keeping our “eye single”.  We see all as one.  What a world we would create if we all did this – no more war, no more suffering, no more greed.  WE create our world.  I create my reality.  It’s not them and us, its we.  So when I keep my eye on Creator, I see all as one.  I see all as myself.  And I’m not alone any more, and I am loved, and I am at peace.

Love Love Love

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