Here I am in the US for a bit and let me tell you that it can be a challenge to stay focused when travelling. It seems I am a creature of habit which is another form of attachment…to routine! You know when you are at home you go to bed and get up at a certain time, shower, have coffee or tea, exercise, meditate, eat, and work. Some things throw you off at times but it is a rather “set”, in some ways, schedule. Then we travel and encounter airplane waiting areas, limited food choices, no place to exercise, people around all the time, transportation challenges, etc, etc, etc. – wow, I did not know I was such a creature of habit. I am learning to adapt and find the rythm of life by going within and asking what’s next? Where do I go from here? How do I get there? Adapt, adapt, and adapt some more, is all I can say. It is the art of flowing with the current of life, flowing with the river not trying to paddle up river. Change happens and we are sometimes caught in cross-currents, dashed about, can’t come up for air, looking for a limb to hang on to, and finding none start to panic – where is God, will I survive, what will life look like now, why am I here, how did I get here, what do I do now? Over and over we question while grasping for a hand, a smile, a kind word, sometimes finding none…so what then? We let go and let God do with us as He will. I am not sure I have reached that point yet, the point of letting go. I am in the whirlpool of the cross currents and when we are there we are still struggling to comprehend how we got there, and in the struggle we become tired, and in the tiredness we question what life is really about, and while questioning we sink below the surface, a victim to the water, the currents, and life really. How do we pull ourselves out of the whirlpool? WE don’t really, only God can do that, and that is based on our FAITH that God is there for us, really there for us, not just the nice words we say in our head – God loves me, I am a child of God, I am God, yada yada. This is the place we question the deepest truths in our heart. This is the place where we HOPE that “hope springs eternal”. This is the place where love lives, the love we search for, hope for, dream about, wonder if it exists at all. We ask does God really care? Does He really notice every sparrow that falls from the sky? He’s got a big job he does, lots of people to take care of, and you know I haven’t always been the best worker in the God department. This is where the Grace of God is supposed to kick in. And as we are sinking we are thinking, hmmm, I wonder what my God score is at now…am I in the plus or minus category? Haha…did I use all my God points on last week’s snafu I got myself into? So we reach for the tree branch, look for a hand to grab on to, if there is none that is probably for the best as that means we have to let go and put it all in God’s Hands. We have to TRUST AND SURRENDER…there’s those words again, the same answer comes up in every situation I am given. It seems there is no other answer, every time I question I come up with the same answer. Do you know how flippin’ tiring that is???
So here I am on this fitness program, flopping around like a fish out of water, exercise-flip, food-flop, 5 tibetans-flip/flop, weights-sink, every day a new start. Isn’t that what life is though and every challenge we meet? Every minute is a new start, every challenge a new beginning, every situation a new whirlpool, just God giving us the experiences we need to become enlightened. When we have a set routine, that’s when He really goes to work and makes the BIG waves, the Hawaii 50 foot waves, and says here ride this for a while, are you having fun yet? If not, why not? Haven’t I given you all you need to ride the wave? The practice, the time, the teachings, the tools, the love, did you sleep through all that? Again? Look for the joy in your life, look for me, I’m right here right now, I’m the current that keeps pushing you to the top when you sink too far down, I’m the breathe you take when you surface occasionally, I am always there you just have to let go and trust that I am…that’s your JOY, my I AM is your I AM. Just let go and trust me. Yes, I see the Light shining thru the water, I know it’s there, I know you are there….just…why? Oh yeh, forgot, your standard answer, “Why not?” So at some point we let go, surrender and trust we will get rescued, we will live for another day….actually the truth is, we will live until the next wave… My advice, build a surfboard, because the only way out is to rise above the wave, ride it to shore and step off the wheel, then you get to help everyone else…haha, just a bigger wave to ride! Enjoy the ride! Safe Journey!
Love Love Love
Sandra Grey Wolf – firstname.lastname@example.org
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