I face challenges to my fitness program every day and other challenges to my personal peace, and realize once again it is all about my attachments. We listen to Derek talking about non-attachment, we read about it in every spiritual book, we think we have moved past them in so many ways…and we do make progress….then we get tested. Somehow the universe says “you think so?” What if I take this away, and this, and this, and this, and next thing you know you are sitting there with nothing left and twiddling your thumbs going “well this sucks”, or not. Food programs can be like that, or health issues, or jobs we had, or money in the bank, one day there and next day gone…and don’t even think about the relationships that have ended in an instant…a holy instant, as they say in the Course In Miracles. Yes, one day you are eating whatever you want, being the couch potato, working 12 hours a day, making more money in a day than some people make in a year, having lots of money in stocks, or thinking we have a relationship that will be with us for the rest of our lives. We are thinking we have it made in the shade. I have experienced all of the above and have been shown over and over again in my life how it is SO not true. It all comes down to we weren’t paying attention. No, we weren’t paying attention to the only truth we need to be paying attention to…God within us. We become so focused on losing weight, doing a great job, making money, making love, enjoying the fruits, that we forget where all that comes from…so we get reminded. As we’ve been taught, when we don’t have the outer any longer we turn to God, which is what He wants us to do, and say what happened, why did you desert me, what did I do wrong, where are you? Right where He/She always was, you just quit paying attention, or enough attention, or attention in the right way…so you get called home once again to be reminded of who you truly are and where your loyalty truly lies. We rebel when this happens, we go into denial and anger and all those steps we take to justify our position, our life, who we are, what we created – because we ARE the only ones creating our life, you have realized that I am sure if you’ve been with Derek a while. And then once again we realize the Truth, we have again become attached to our attachments, our comfort zone, who we have always been, what we have always ate, how we have always operated, the belief systems we thought we were past that tend to run our life when we are not looking, and we have once again forgot what we are really here for…to attach only to God. Our attachments only keep us attached to who we no longer are, who we no longer want to be. BUT, of course, they are OUR attachments after all – we created them, we enjoy them, and we wonder how we can live without them in our lives. What will replace our attachments? Who are we without our attachments? Is life worth living without our attachments? And, again, what’s wrong exactly with being attached to our partners, our food, our job, our kids, our life? We argue for our limitations, we argue for our attachments, we argue for our old life back…and then we finally stop arguing and step back and look at our attachments…and ourselves…and God…and say hmmm…I lost the point of my life, I lost my true motivation, I lost my spiritual path, I lost myself, I lost my joy. No matter what I was doing and how hard I was working at it, and the fact I was doing it for all the right reasons, I was once again doing it in entirely the wrong way because I was attached to what I was doing, attached to the outcome, attached to the pleasure and the pain, just plain old attached. We think we can walk away from it…until it’s gone…then we realize our attachment kept us attached to who we no longer are, or want to be. We have left that person behind, it is really time to move on to something new, but it took a good swift kick in the butt by God to make us realize it. THAT’S TRUE GRACE! We think the Grace of God is going to come like a big giant ice cream cone in our favorite flavor…haha…God’s Grace comes in many forms, that’s why we need to embrace everything that comes to us on our spiritual path…the happy and the sad, the good and the bad, the pleasure and the pain, the ice cream and the brussel sprouts. It is all the same, it is given to us so we can move forward on our spiritual path, so get over it and get on with it. How do we know when it is time to move forward in our work, and in our lives, and in our spiritual path? When it all leaves and we are sitting there on the road without a dime or a clue, when the only thing in the refrigerator is ice cream and it’s not on our food program, when our husband says I’m bored and I’m out of here…that’s when we need to paste a silly smile on our sorry puss like The Fool in the tarot deck and say I love this road…wonder where it’s going? …as we step off the cliff remember to say Thank You G-o-o-o-o-o-d! (spells like good doesn’t it?) on the way to your next road. Happy landing, and by the way, keep your eyes on Creator and He may just catch you right before you land…that’s where hope and faith and love come in….many blessings on your journey! Oh, by the way, I am still on my fitness program, a bit revised, more relaxed with it, still moving forward, and still letting go of the weight of the past…thank the Lord…and Gavin!!!
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Thank you Sandra!!!