I believe actually working with someone in this way, even though I don’t see Gavin every day (that would be nice but not possible, darn!), is motivating and empowering all at the same time. Is it because I am actually taking the reigns back from who I gave my power away to so many years ago? If I am well that’s the empowering part of this program, I also realize though that, as we learned in the Bhagavad Gita teachings Derek O’Neill has given us, that Krishna or God or Creator or whatever term you use for the Higher Power in our lives really holds the reigns and guides the senses as we surrender and keep our Eyes On Creator. In this program for me that looks like letting go of attachment to the outcome, any outcome, yes I lost weight these two weeks more than I have on Weight Watchers or other programs I have followed in the past where the focus was on the weight, but my focus has not been on how much will I lose, or if I will lose at all. My focus has been on eating healthier, getting stronger, so I have more energy to do my spiritual work and my service work. So really my focus and what started me on this was my spiritual path and how I can be of more service in my life…so Eyes On Creator. And amazingly enough the whole plan has been easy when I quit focusing on the pounds, or the inches, or the food for that matter! I am not hungry at all! I am not bored with the food choices, they are not important. I am not perfect either, I have no expectations in that regards whatsoever! The Lord AND Derek knows that’s not who I am at the moment. I have stuck to the program though and there have been times I wanted a piece of chocolate. Interestingly enough though on my “cheat meal”, I get one of those a week, I had a dark chocolate piece during a movie and had actually a couple more pieces sitting in front of me…it didn’t taste that good! How did that happen??? Why did that happen??? I am not sure, only God knows the answer to that question I’m sure. So I ended up having only one. Is it the attachment I had to having it, and not actually the taste of it? I have switched to this great Cherry tea a friend of mine is sharing with me, or a Himalayan tea, or our fresh from the garden Lavender tea or Mint tea we have here at Creacon. I feel nurtured longer sitting with a simple cup of tea, sipping as I watch a movie, or a decaf coffee after a meal, with some berries on the side for a little extra sweetness, than I did with a munch it down now chocolate cake. I am finding life simpler when my food choices become simpler too. I realized I had attachments to the chocolate, to the desserts, to whatever foods I thought were a must previously because they were a special treat or a fast food fantasy, and the attachments had nothing to do with the food and everything to do with the memories attached to the food. Chocolate cake is attached to birthdays and presents and parties, Pasta & Pizza to my little Italian grandma Lizzie I loved so much, Hamburgers to my fun times growing up and hanging out at McDonalds with my friends, etc. It’s not that I am not having this if I want it, it just doesn’t have the importance when I let go of the attachments surrounding it and just look at it for what it is…a blob on a plate. Haha, I realized that if you don’t have any attachments around the food, that’s what the food becomes…just a blob on a plate…a green blob, a brown blob, a red blob…it was a great realization! Not that I don’t enjoy my food I eat, I do and it’s good but it is there to keep me healthy, give me energy, nourish my cells, etc., it is not there to feed my attachments. I have to admit I had a physical energy loss last Wednesday, just zapped, it was an effort to walk from the Cottages to the Main House here at Creacon – those of you who have been here know that is not a long walk! So I called Gavin, now that in itself was a change right there, I could just have easily said I need food this isn’t working for me, but nope I called him, and of course he helped me sort it out by asking me gently, what was I eating, what was I doing, etc. which I answered truthfully, and he adjusted a few things for me and wa-la I felt great again and went merrily along! He knew exactly what I needed, of course he is very intuitve also which I am sure helps him in his work now and makes him a cutting edge above the others out there…gee I wonder where he inherited that from? Himself…he is definitely his own person, he did have great parents though, didn’t he? Anyway as I was saying, he helped me sort it out and I realized a great thing about food and my body and what I need and when it is me processing mentally and thinking I need something to eat and when it is food my body actually needs. There are so many factors that zap our energy, or that can if we let them, food, people, places, etc, etc., sometimes my intuition sorted it out and sometimes I have been at a loss as to what happened . I now have another tool to use to sort it out with, I never really knew what worked for me energetically when it came to food and what didn’t…so now I am learning. The more I let go of the attachments around it, the more I can understand what is the best for me and my body, my health, my energy, my strength, me. So it has been an amazing two weeks and this fitness program is a true spiritual experience in alignment with and in integrity with who I am and with my spiritual path. Thank you Creator, I asked and you delivered…and thank you Derek for the teachings you have given me which helps me to sort it all out in a good way.
Many Blessings to you all! Have a great week! Love Love Love Sandra