I told this to someone the other day JUST SHOW UP and the universed does the rest…and then I just realized that is my fitness program…I finally JUST SHOWED UP! My God how simple is that? It seemed like all the people I talked to were all afraid that they were not going to understand all the NLP stuff. Isn’t it interesting how sneaky our fears are? I was afraid of losing weight – why? Hmmm, would I have to face the reasons why I gained the weight, I mean the gut level truth of it, the soul-wrenching as they say core of the onion, probably. So maybe I was afraid of what that would look like, like maybe people aren’t judging me for the weight but for my “less than pleasing at times” personality, or try this one – men don’t come around because of the weight…or could it be I scare the hell out of them with my sharp-tongued whit and ability to turn most of them red in under a minute, or maybe it is that I would have to confront my fear of death – the rape brought up the fear of dying at the hands of a man, ah, then again maybe it’s to look at my “who gives a shit” attitude about others and what they think which really is only covering up a need to feel loved but I am rejecting before I am rejected, and on and on and on. Isn’t it endless the many levels of the fears we deal with on a daily basis? And as we were discussing here at lunch today, realizing that the more we realize the less places we have to go to hide…there are no hide outs, no cop outs, no addictions, no excuses, anymore that we can’t see for what they are…just that…hide outs, cop outs, addictions, and excuses…Victim escapes. We used to escape into our victimhood and recount how others were to blame and we were blameless… and then our great teacher taught us that “all perception is projection”…dang that guy, he took away all our hiding places with that one phrase which he then backs up with monumental amount of teachings and we have to once again paint the word “surrender” across our forehead. The basis of every lesson I have learned is Trust and Surrender, why did I think a fitness program was going to be any different? Haha…that is Spirit’s way of getting us to do what we don’t want to do but we need to do whether we want to or not…the Lads, Spirit, God, Creator knows we are never going to start the program, we are never going to SHOW UP if they don’t camoflage the truth in layers of “other reasons” for us to do something. Like Derek, when I asked that question on the radio about why I was procrastinating on exercise (this was before the fitness program), and he says “oh procrastination is just another word for laziness” KNOWING beyond knowing the workings of my simple mind and how being called lazy was a call to battle for me. Lazy???!!! How could my teacher call me LAZY???!!! Oh my God, well I’ll show him lazy…haha…he is having himself a good laugh about now…but then aren’t we his students a never ending source of entertainment for him??? haha…until we’re not and he has to go Shiva on us…ah sure, it’s all grand – as Linda would say. Yes, it is because once I showed up the way became easy, the path became filled with light, the burden shifted to Creator’s shoulders, and I stepped into a place of gratitude that I had a path to tread, a purpose to fulfill, a life to live. I became empowered and stepped out of the role of victim and into the path of the BE-er, so I could become the DO-er, so I could experience the HAVE-er. We used to talk in the seminar business about the concept of BE-DO-HAVE. I always questioned which came first but I know now you have to BE first. I had to accept the BE-ingness of who I was, an empowered woman. In order to step into the DO-ingness of recognizing that I can accomplish anything i set my mind to. So that I could accept the HAVE-ingness of what I deserved. My teacher helped me to see who I am by challenging me on what I was not….LAZY. I had to trust the love that the words came to me with though, because what I often have done with others in my life is say “what do they know, they’re full of it anyway” I can’t do that with Derek though because I realize I have finally come to the point of trusting him NOT to say anything that wasn’t from love and for my highest good. Since I could trust that then I had to look at what he was really saying and take it in and absorb the truth and then accept it as something I needed to look at further and dig deeper to find out about it. Is that giving my power away to someone? No, that is having someone whose opinion you value so much and trust so much is there to help you attain your highest potential that you listen to the words, really listen with “ears to hear”, and then dig deep and find the truth within you that is waiting there for you to uncover so that you can find the deeper truth beyond that which is “You are God, You are loved, all is possible and more than you ever realized you are capable of”. That’s the trust factor that was missing in my life until I started working with him, there are no hidden agenda’s…not on his part…only on mine…me finding the truth about my true motivations, whether it is why I have weight, or why I am on a spiritual path, or why I am angry, or why I am fearful. I still had to do the work, and face the truth about myself that I didn’t want to face…The Truth that will set me free. So Showing up is half the battle, the other half is trusting yourself to be willing to go the distance, dig deep, to find the truth…keep showing up in other words.
So am I still on the fitness plan…yes. Am I BE-ing first, then DO-ing & HAVE-ing…yes. Have I gotten to the core yet….probably not. Is it easy?…some days yes, some days no. That’s the SHOWING UP part…I am still showing up (pat myself on the back) 🙂 Every day is another chance to show up in our lives, this day is mine…and tomorrow…and…